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I would like a bunny again.

Actually any pets that I can play with would be nice.
Okay I know what I've wanted to add to my blog, a list of life goals :)


That Girl; ahh the part when they're first in the field, David Choi is like a little boy it's so adorable.
And the CGI flying photos are mad :)
But I really do love David's voice.


Nice, who wants to play?

Umm I guess physics was alright. It's like I had an answer for everything and I worked every question out, but did I get any of it right? We will see.
The spring question? Hmm definitely doubting my answer but who cares. I love special relativity! (I shouldn't speak too soon)
Time to study up for chem :)

My mum's fried dumplings fatten me up for the cold foggy winter.



Taken a week ago maybe? I ran out of the house @ 7am after just waking up.

Love Lisa.

Eschaton

Okay okay way too apocalyptic. But overdramatics are my thing.
Feeling a little zombified but elated...no wait not quite the right word but as I said, zombified.
Picture this..on second thoughts, don't go there.

Physics in less than a day, we will see how this turns out.
Good luck to everyone doing Biol, Physics and Accounting :)

168hours ago, and yet forgotten so soon.
A lucid nightmare but I'm already awake. niaga dna niaga gnorw nevorp
If this is intentional then it is more than effective, it is mentally shattering.

No one sees the collateral damage, because no one wants to,
Love Lisa.

Perdition

Good and true. And there's no escape, it doesn't end, fml.

The jealousy, the shyness - though in vain -

Made up a love so tender and so true.

-Pushkin

Not So Much So

Must be going about this the wrong way.
I don't want to but I can't stop.

It's like every time I add 1 + 1 and it equals 3. I add 2 + 2 and it still equals 3. One more than it should, one less than it should. That's the only way I can explain how I feel.

Filling in a gap that doesn't exist is harder than it looks.

Doctor doctor give me the news,
Love Lisa.

One Jiff

*update: i realise I missed out quite a few things, because I will forever lack mind to hand coordination
but okay, as turning on the computer again has turned out counter productive, waiting for a miracle but it seems like ' tonight's not [my] night' (fear the state of my mental health in regard to my references). Bonne nuit readers.

Two second update as I had to turn the computer on to transfer $25 to my brother:
1. My life is practise exams, I have no other life, I forgotten what it is to lead a life without practise exams
2. Mail, yes it has come :DD
3. I dreamt feverishly about doing physics exams last night, specifically a conservation of energy question
4. My first blood nose yesterday, just sitting in spesh doing my thang, and hello runny nose, wait no, that's blood. It didn't stop for 3 hours...and thankyou Pauline for stating that 'maybe you're dying' and then reassuring me that 'maybe [I'm] not'. Yeah how do you like my quoting skills, just kidding, I have issues with throwing quotes into essays.

Worst of all, that feeling is threatening to crawl out of the recesses of my very soul and eat me :(
What am I meant to do? I don't question it rhetorically I really just want to know.
As no objective view or solution will ever exist, the best I can hope for is to continue at this rate and hopefully not fall on my face.

Here's a shitty analogy, going downhill is not only easier it's faster, but somewhat precarious as once you start, the momentum (oh god physics) builds and BAM, everything's spiraling out of control, and next thing you know you've hit rock bottom, not to mention the injuries incurred along the way. Then it'll take unnecessary effort to get back to even where you started. But I guess it can't always be helped.

NTS; do not, I repeat do NOT over think right now. I can't wait until after next Wednesday to fall into that trap. gnihton si gnihtyreve

Okay five minutes have past, byebye internet. I miss you.
Love Lisa.

PS. I am so sorry everyone and the many facebook messages (from way back) I have not replied to. The internet is the worst distraction of my life so minimalising my usage is my goal for the next 4 days. But my phone is forever and ever and ever on, and I'm pretty sure you know I answer at any time of the night because I can't reject calls.

Bare Duplicity

That pretence. Silly silly silly.
Why do I endure? Since there's all the reasons in the world to not anymore. Just think about it, no really think about it. Not that I like to myself.
It's because the alternative is worse tenfold.

The paradox is so obvious, too obvious even, that you don't realise it's hitting you in the face. Can't see it? Turn down the self righteous attitude and therein lies the crux of my existence.

I really do understand the 'girls who eat their feelings', it's so easy to gorge yourself silly when you're not in the best mood.
In the past few hours (not including dinner) I have eaten a bag of cranberries, a bowl of almonds, a bowl of pistachios, chocolate biscuits (theyre damn good) and almost a block of dark chocolate.

Rinse, wash, repeat. It's almost exactly the same process, starting again for the umpteenth time. Undoubtedly the most disturbing and whacked out universal role reversal.
So sit back, and we'll see how this unfolds.


Fingers crossed, no? :)

Love Lisa.
PS. Still want to go to an oxygen bar, who will hunt one down with me in the future?

Perhaps Perchaps

Might be on hiatus for a while, perhaps until after exams (such a lie, I'll be blogging in no time, I bet)
I haven't turned the computer on since Sunday night DUNDUNDUNN.
Attempting to cut down on my time spent on the good old interweb.

Trying to keep up the studying rate, the moment I stop it takes 100x the effort to start again.
So easy to get lost in my stupid thoughts that hound me on eternal repeat. The good and the bad, and the what if's, yeah always them. That's probably the worst of it.

English SAC today was definitely more difficult than expected. The topics were..not ambiguous but okay a little ambiguous but generally just not very nice topics full stop.

My coccyx hurts. I will be forever amazed by the spelling of that word.

Still a physics sac tomorrow, sigh,
Love Lisa.