Wed Nes Day

Once again I find myself in the same predicament.
The one where I want to clear my room of all the useless crap that is suffocating it, yet I can't bear to part with 90% of it.

Someone needs to teach me how to be less...clingy? To inanimate objects at least.

Retrospectively speaking, I should learn from my mistakes, so why don't I?

Love.

Pathetic

I really am.
Plus I am ridiculously emotional.

Thus Spoke Zarathustra

Wasted half my day.
But the other half was at Chaddy getting Dad his belated bday present.
We were going to get him this Tommy Hilfiger zip up jacket but in the end it was a pull over knit with 1/4 zip :)
Pretty suave on me old man haha.

He pretended like he didn't like it because it was expensive. But we could see straight through that facade ;D

Rest of the day was whittled away doing next to nothing productive.

Oh bought 'The Adventures of Sherlock Holmes' to read, and so far it seems to be similar to the most recent movie.
I like.

Should sleep soon since mum woke me up at 8am :( Thus meaning I only got to sleep >5hours straight.
Love Lisa.

Zinta's 18th Mario Party

Didn't take a single photo oh no.
Oh well I was lazy D:
Will have to steal photos of Em and Sylvia.

But it was awesome.
Though there was that feeling I couldn't shake.
Like someone missing :(

Love.











I know yeah my costumes shit, but I had ears(cos Lahla has ears even though she's a Boo) but then I didn't want to look mean girls party skanky :(

Soft Belly

Joseph Nguyen & his girlfriend, Anna's joint birthday last night :)
Was quite good and me Tracey and Pauline stressed out about nothing, we got in without a single hassle.

Everyone there was really nice but as per usual am I socially quite awkward/shy.
Must learn to make conversation haha one day.

Sadly me and Tracey had to leave quite early, 10,10.30pm and we left Pauline there by her lonesome. But she had to stay until her sister could take her home so it was the only thing she could do.

On our way to Flinders Tracey accidentally snobbed these tourists off because she thought they were trying to chat her up, but then they came to me and were like 'do you know how to get to King St?', and that is my ultimate fear, people asking me for directions, because I barely know where anything is myself, though I've lived in Melbourne my whole life...
So then I had to ask (yell since she had sped off) Tracey haha.

Today, chinese, had a 'SAC' but it's not counted towards anything since my real SACs are at my normal school.
But this listening was damn hard D: I think I managed to answer 80%, then I'll probably get some of those wrong so another 70% prediction? Haha.

Zinta's 18th tonight woo.
My dad made a bow tie for me, how insane is that?
As in he literally hand sewed it for me, from a piece of material and it looks effing awesome.
I should shower or something :)

But I really feel like talking, like today I've just chatted to my parents about very arbitrary topics and I don't have long conversations with them all that often lmfao. So this is what happens when I don't need to do homework (yet).

Love Lisa.

PS. FEAR NOT JUDGEMENT. ASK ALL FORMSPRING QUESTIONS PLEASE I LOVE THEM HAHA

Once In A...

...Blue Moon.
Next one scheduled for November 21, 2010.
Come and see it with me? :)

HOLIDAYS

Physics SAC was a bitch but whatever I'm over it.
I predict 70% if I am lucky. LOL. Looks like my countless hours slaving away over the most comprehensive cheat sheet known to man was a waste. But I wouldn't feel any better if my cheat sheet was shit, so yeah.

I hope I didn't already embed this video previously, but I saw this a while ago and still cannot get over how much I will my hair could do that LMFAO.
Okay the high speed camera is essential too BUT STILL.

Also her dad filmed this, she looks naked though, but I'm sure she wasn't..right?

ANYHOW I REALLY NEED TO SHOWER I FEEL GROTTY.
Love.

Run Away

English SAC tomorrow. I'm really starting to like this whole Whose Reality busines.
Though I am in no way insinuating I will be able to write fluently within 90mintes (do we get 90mins?)
Time pressure kills me.

Mrs Badoer was really nice today, brought us biscuits, dip and strawberries because our english lesson was planned to go over time.
Though she is ever so nice, she is one harsh marker, and quite critical of work.
But you have to be cruel to be nice no?

Our whole school photo is tomorrow morning.

I think I've pretty much completed my english cheat sheet. It's pretty comprehensive. Far cry from concise, (no shit) it's as anti-concise as you could get, I wish I knew how to cut down my thoughts.
But they just pour out of my cranium, no not pour, spill out and I can't sort them, organise them into something that makes sense.

Time to shower,
Love Lisa.

Intangible, Enigmatic

I don't know if I quite agree. Yes, enigmatic sounds about right but if anything love is an overload of the senses.

Sometimes it seems we have only to love a thing greatly to attain it. Robert Collier

i'm okay i'm okay i'm okay

or am i just kidding myself?

now when I'm alone I know that all I have is my thoughts to keep me company and that thought is killing me.

fuck, analysing my own pysche is so wrong.

Ohh er in case you were wondering where those really odd out of place posts came from.
They were ones that I never published that I discovered going through my list of posts.
They're in their correct dates now. I forget when exaclty but they are strewn throughout the year.

Maybe Baby

Every time I hear a maybe, I just take it negatively, so yeah, it's my own fault.

I'm so stupid it makes me want to bang my head on a wall.

[oh no this post does not belong in this date. it is at least a few months old]

I like how I keep checking the weather and refreshing the Age website as if that will somehow answer all my problems.
FAR OUT MUST STUDY FOR 4 SACS WHAT AM I DOING WITH MY LIFE.
Bad time to start being lazy.

Oh no, thinking about it now, besides from one hot cross bun (mmm) I have not eaten in 24hours.
But worse, I'm not even hungry.

If you want to be with someone you love, aren't you already there?
-Richard Bach

Always easier said than done Richard.

SCHOOLHOUSIN'

Wasting time. Must. Write. English. Expository.
Must. Finish. Physics. EEI SAC.
Must. Study.

Feeling quite drained, chinese school teacher told my parents I talk to much during class.
Which then dragged up my parents primary school criticim of my class behaviour. And the argument lasted forever. Thanks张老师. What I just realised is my chinese teacher at normal school and chiense school have the same surname :O Oh my.

Took me an hour to draw 10 trig reciprocal graphs. Pretty weak don't you think?

Made instant noodles witha fried egg for lunch.
Going to eat an apple now.

Goals for today:
-complete half my physics
-write an expository, email it to Mrs Badoer
-do an hour of methods
-start english help sheet
-copy out chinese

Until next time,
Love Lisa.

Don't Boggle With My Mind Thanks

I'M SO CONFUSED by more things than one

You've Got 24 Hours

It's all part of Tracey's master plan.

Also Chinese SAC today, it was okay, was over the character limit by 13 when I had finished D:
I think I cut enough out to be under the limit? God I hope, I have issues, I can't count continuously above 40..things go haywire and my thoughts float away :S

Wrote about my 'visit to Australia' and 'described two cities'. Fairly easy topic since she's given it to us as a practice..hmmm? ^o)
there was an imaginative..but I suck shit at those. Sure I have the ideas but I can't form them into coherent Chinese sentences.

Speaking of coherence, my english persuasive essay is probably the worst one I've done. I go so far off topic that I think she might mistake me for picking another prompt.

Could be another one of my unnecessary but compulsive overanalysises(surely thats not the plural) but still.
You're funny, real funny.

Boo Radley, I Need A Distraction

It is an intrinsic of being human that we feel acceptance and part of a larger community.
Is it not?

'Harper Lee reveals that empathy is a crucial ingredient in a tolerant and just society, though this often proves elusive and difficult to achieve in reality.' excerpt from my essay...I don't think any of what I say is relevant but whatever.




Betts $30, Camberwell Market $5 & $2 (those two pairs are real leather). I am amazed I finally found shoes at the market that actually fit me, they're always too big. I also saw these leather with wool lining lace up boots, they were amazing. I do not joke. But $40 and they were clearly worn and mum did not approve of the idea that someone else's foot had sweated inside of there.

Growing lizard thing..that my bro bought me over a year ago haha
Initial size

After 24hours

It's grown more now..think it's reached it's limit though.


After Jenny and Paul's. Had a sudden urge to attempt a hairflick, although a failure I ended up with a lovely headache :)


Fin.

Where are you where are you where are you?
I smile but it has no meaning. I laugh but it feels so hollow.
Please, I can't breathe like this.

Stalemate

It was one of those days where I wake up and I know my eyelids are fucked up. If you're not asian, you're lucky you won't know what I mean.

Though I can think straighter today, seems I have been struck with an assortment of maladies, my cough is back, my head throbs and I am a bit photosensitive.

Always toward absent lovers love's tide stronger flows.

I've spent the day inside my own mind.
Replaying the same events over and over. Reenacting would could have been.
Yet none of it makes sense to me. Everything's all a mess. Nothing is where is should be.

There's this dull ache in the back of my mind, that I can't shake.
I feel broken, I can't function properely.
I haven't felt hungry...(there's only two things that make me not hungry, either I'm having too much fun or there's something very wrong). And I haven't been able to write a single coherent sentence for my english essay.

My mind has a tendency to remember and want to relive the perfect memories, the ones that I never wanted to end. I am only able to focus on the good, is that a flaw? Because that's how I get by, each and every day. That's the only way I can.

I am going in circles. Save me.

English Orals & Parent Teacher Interviews

FIRSTLY IF YOU DIDNT NOTICE, ASK ME ANYTHING YOU WANT, JUST TYPE IT IN THE FORMSPRING BOX TO THE RIGHT (SOMEHWERE) ---->
YOU CAN REMAIN ANONYMOUS :)

Oh Wang Bang as my nickname on my Year 12 jumper? Yay or nay?
The only other option I can think of is Lisa Pisa, but that could sound a little...how shall I put it, lame. Even though I consider it a valid nickname and quite like it, to the outside world..yeah

I'll talk about tomorrow and today's yearage later :)

Finally, no more english orals...ever EVER again.
I bet I'll start becoming wistful, missing them even. But for now, I can rejoice.
So my oral went okay, could have been worse, could have been better (but can't it always?)
As usual I stumbled across a few sentences and words, I have some serious articulation/enunciation issues.

After school I had parent teacher interviews. As usual my dad was ridiculous, not exactly in a bad way, but he and Mrs. Hill had a good old laugh about an incident at VCE information night.
But overall, everyone's comments were far nicer than I expected.

See I logically ordered my interviews from what I thought would be worst, to best. Or I tried, but I was restrained by the available times.
It went, Mrs. Badoer (English), Mr Hester (Physics), Mrs Hill (Spesh), Mrs Kettle (Methods), Mr. Nicoll (Chem), and then Mrs. Zhang (Chinese).
Our chats with Mrs Hester and Mr Micoll were both very shortlived, they were quite nice, especially Mr. Nicoll, and then that was that.

That reminds me, now Mr. Nicoll has me hoping for some sort of amazing outcome in Chem. He looks straight at me and goes, you can get in the 40s, for sure a 40s student. o_o eeep, I hope not to disappoint him.

Oh and Mrs. Zhang said I made good use of idioms in Chinese essays..I don't even consciously remember using them intentionally...

Anyhow, I'm dead tired. Dad made me drive home and pick mum up from Camberwell, which involved parking a few times. Which I realise I can actually park perfectly fine, just in the past Dad has stressed me out everytime I tried.

Random Fact
On Friday the 14th 2011 I will be 1000 weeks old.

Love Lisa.

PS. Is it weird that I'm inspired to work now but I'm here typing this?
PPS. Made the most amazing Windows 7 feature discovery...okay are you ready for it..Maths Input Panel (ahhahaah alright maybe the fact that I'm astounded by this revelation says a lot about me)
oh and Windows Journal, I've nevr wanted a graphics tablet more than I do now. Definitely on my birthday wishlist (it's been there since I was 12)

Apocalyptic

It all started when the sky turned black. Then, a distant rumble.
Next thing you know, balls of icy goodness are pelting down. Dad got a few while they were still small-ish (still way bigger than usual) and then I kid not when I say they got to the size of ice cubes.
At first I was all woo how awesome, then I started picturing the tennis ball sized ones that rained down on Syndey and destroyed houses..then I was scared.
But then that didn't happen so it was back to woo :D

Let me go back a few hours. I had chinese school, oh chinese. I used to be good at it, then it seems like everyone else improved dramatically and I'm stuck at a 10th grade level or something :'(
Oh well, what can I do.

Afterwards we went to Camberwell. And I saw a pair of shoes, and I was in love.
Then I saw the price tag, $30 (75% off the RRP) and that sealed the deal, I had to have them. ASAP.

a range of days

(it's really difficult showing a whole outfit because there's no timer or countdown option on my webcam program thing, so i have to be within reach of the mouse D:

i could be so tb :D

first day I've worn tights in many MANY long months o_o


after running cross country which for me, is equivalent to a marathon hahaha



yes, this post is quite erratic. Goodnight.
Love Lisa.

Give Me A Reason, Please?

School doesn't make sense. Maybe I haven't recovered from Luna Park yesterday but I was so out of it, couldn't retain a single thing.
Since I wasn't at school, I didn't get my second chem SAC back. But I dread seeing it, I alreayd know for sure I screwed up two questions (and there
s not that many questions in total), and I thought I'd ace chem :(

And now everything seems like a blur. I'm doing shitter in every subject than I have in any other year. What a great year to start going downhill.
Methods is okay, I just do stupid mistakes..the ones I thought I grew out of last year.
Chinese...well my chinese school teacher has lost hope in me, or if I continue at my current standard she'll probably want to kick me out of chinese school for dragging down the scores. I think I lost a fair few marks on the listening SAC, haven't got it back but it's one of those things you just know.
English, yeah I don't know, haven't really gotten back into the swing of writing, my essays are cliche and very mediocre.
Physics..physics..I really don't know about this one. I like the subject but it can take a while for me to grasp the gist of it.
Spec is as expected, just passing woo :D

4 days to go though :) The only thing I look forward to.

Our Last Cross Country

So it was the final year of House Cross Country that I decided, I would actually try this time.
The year that many of the people who normally ran the whole way, walked.

I ran maybe 70% of it, and it's 3.2km (i think?). Might not sound like a lot but really wouldn't consider myself to be fit..at all.
I don't ever EVER exercise. There was the gymming phase, but now I'm back to being lazy...the state I belong in.

Oh and I came 17th with Anya as my running buddy,. Not too shabby considering. I'm proud :)
I forget who, but someone said top 20 were in the cross country team, and then I wanted to cry. But I discovered it was top 10 or 12 hehee
The cross country team do hardocre running, at 6am in the morning, just thinking about it makes me feel tired.

Speaking of which I'm dead tired.
I am tempted to nap.

Love Lisa.

PS. I'll put photos up later..
I know I haven't updated anything in a while, school has been working me overtime :(
At least all the chem work paid off, got my first SAC back :D