Bjorn

If i told you things i did before
told you how i used to be
would you go along with someone like me
if you knew my story word for word
had all of my history
would you go along with someone like me

I did before and had my share
it didn't lead nowhere
i would go along with someone like you
it doesn't matter what you did
who you were hanging with
we could stick around and see this night through

and we don't care about the young folks
talkin' 'bout the young style
and we don't care about the old folks
talkin' 'bout the old style too
and we don't care about their own faults
talkin' 'bout our own style
all we care 'bout is talking
talking only me and you

Usually when things has gone this far
people tend to disappear
no one will surprise me unless you do

I can tell there's something goin' on
hours seems to disappear
everyone is leaving i'm still with you



I forgot how much I used to love this song,
Love Lisa.

Au Contraire

Never hope for what you don't expect because that is setting yourself up for a fucking painful fall.

Guess I had to make all the mistakes to learn from them, right?

Thing is, I know I will still forgive just as easily as I ever have.

I really really really so badly wanted to believe in every word, that it wouldn't change, not again, but it's played out just like that nightmare I had one night. Deja vu got me again.

Take away the person makes you feel the safest, rendered so fragile, stripped naked, one poke and you'll crumble.

It hasn't hit yet, but never fear, sooner or later it will. Once again, the honest truth, no matter how painful, I'd rather it then some pretence.

I know we all move on, but I take an eternity.

I dread the finale of anything, even that of a tv show and finishing school scares me, silly huh?

I fear the unknown. Once I find somewhere I'm comfortable, something I like, I never want it to go away. And imagining it no longer being there makes my heart sink. I don't care if there's 'better' out there.

While discovering something I love, well that takes my compulsion to a whole new level.

It's half true, you don't blog when you're happy. But sometimes I blog because I want to remind myself of the most amazing days. And perhaps some are blog posts I never published but they exist, everything that has happened to me in the past year and a half.

Probably think I write it all huh, bare my soul on the internet? Not quite, this is a fraction of my life, the more important posts I don't publish and there's some I can't even type, it's all written in pen. Truth be told I'm greedy okay, I don't want to share my most intimate memories with just anyone.

I'm sorry if I stuffed up your day/night. Already unconsciously becoming what I vowed never to be.

It either is or it isn't, there is no limbo.
That bittersweet end, when everything and nothing collide to wreak utter destruction.
There's just one thing I'm still hoping for, that even when my existence fades, you won't forget.

Love always, Lisa 

'This time I thought that we'd be fine

That I'd forget the things that you said.'

'...and when i get back from outer space

I'm gonna punch him in his face.'

 Listened to and really liked these songs, I don't think I ever mentioned that to you.

Me & You In The Whip Of The Red Light

Baby don't cling, don't cling to a man
If you need the boom boom stick to the plan
I remember when we learnt a dance to that song, specifically what was choreographed to the above lyrics, our teacher was a pretty funny guy.

Interesting journey there. Met Jenny and Cath at Funky Fresh. Missed the first tram down. Jenny wanted pizza. Pizza would take 20mins (too long). Instead got sushi. Sushi place's bathroom was creepy as hell.
On the tram, I fell flat on my ass cause Cath almost toppled over (but no blame on her :D everyone on the tram was dying at every stop), it was one of those feelings, where I was confused as to how I got on the floor and why my ass/elbow hurt like a bitch. And yes, I was completely sober so stay off that track.
Kinda reminds me of when I broke my arm stacking it on my bike, I barely realised what was happening until it had all happened.

Really did not go to dance with anyone other than Jenny and Cath tonight.
I should have just lied and said I had a boyfriend. Oh well not facing them eventually threw them off since I'm pretty sure they were hoping I'd turn around. Suckers.
Nah that's cruel but I am 90% sure they were younger than me by a year, and I don't want to be an unsuspecting cougar, or not a cougar just none of that for me thanks.

Cath on the hunt was the funniest thing ever, seeking out her men. And we were her wingmen, I swear there were so many but she got 3 numbers in the end :)
Well that's what she came to do and that's what she did.

I just don't know whether to be aloof or what. What are the expectations set on me? I don't know how the 'friend' thing is meant to be playing out, I don't know how much is trying too hard.
All in good time right?

Oh no I accidentally pulled out an eyelash :(

It's so cold, chinese tomorrow.
Love Lisa.