Argh

I have been ridiculously agitated and edgy for the past 12 hours.
I don't even think I slept very well and I woke up at 7am, first in that kind of relaxed content state, half a second later I remembered my chinese oral is 2 weeks away from today and I don't think I've ever felt this stressed.
Not even my old piano exams can compare, which may sound stupid but they were what I dreaded more than anything in my life.

I think I've figured it out now. I don't handle situations where I'm judged face to face very well.
Even the thought that I have 10 separate days of written exams doesn't scare me as much as one oral.
Shun my lack of people skills.

I've written 5000+ characters for just over half my oral, excessive? Perhaps. Will I write more? Most definitely.
If I don't over prepare (even if it's not helping in the long term) I'll just freak out more.

Love Lisa.




TO DO WITHIN 24HOURS:
-pay for the VTAC application thing
-submit supporting documents from Dr Chu for VTAC scholarship
-memorise chinese oral (ha)
-finish of spesh bound book

Tension Running High

Everyone seems stressed out, and I don't just mean about school, my family in general keeps snapping every now and then.
And I was all psh, why stress and then I thought about it. 2 weeks til chinese one month til English. Shit.
Sighh, my indifference to it all is being pilfered away, bit by bit.

You know what I haven't done in a while? Watch a movie in a cinema, wait, scratch that, I haven't watched a movie in any form for a very long time.

I have done 1/3 of my spesh bound book of notes.
However, let me emphasise that it's been about 3 days since I started, so that's not much of an achievement.

Also, it's driving me insane, I can't stop analysing every photo that I know has been post processed.
Don't even start with me and say that unless you shoot in RAW format then all images from digital photography have been through post processing.
You know what I mean.
I keep noticing when someone's removed red eye but overdone it and while everyone else just comments saying what a lovely photo, all I can think is how satanic her pupils look.

Why can't I just look at photos like a normal person, why was a destined to such a cruel fate, WHY.
Jokes babe, I do melodramatic too well.

Love Lisa.

"Holidays"

Emphasis on the inverted commas.

I already started these holidays, planning to make a sweet as plan and get organised.
Instead everything has been stressing me :\
And something just before dinner reminded me of the physics sac which will undoubtedly end up as the worst sac/test result in my life. And there's no point in convincing me I did fine when I know I really didn't do enough of the sac to attain half the marks
Great.
Sigh and I know I know, kick ass in the exam and SACs don't mean shit do they? Well I would be saying that but I highly doubt my physics exam will be amazing enough to boost my sac marks.

And it's amazing, I think I have successfully fought off a cold.
Because yesterday morning, I had the tell tale signs of the first inkling of what would turn into an onslaught of sick.
With many Lemsip First Signs tablets, Strepils, wannabe Centrum multivitamins and many spoonfuls of Manuka Honey (which is deliciously sweet anyways).
Plus keeping the fluids up ;D

Because all signs of sickness have dissipated in the past 12 hours WEOO :D
Okay *touch wood, should not speak too early.

Alright so yesterday was the last day of term, which means the last day I will ever wear winter uniform because there is no way in hell I will be wearing it it on if I have the option.
And I saw Daniel after school, which was so good since it's been foreverr D;

Also, reloving my DS, and my attempt to download roms was mainly a failure, because I wanted Cooking Mama 2 & 3, but only tetris and sonic would work );









Okay I just remembered what I spent about 2 hours this morning doing, sticking my purikura in the sticker book Sylvia gave me ages ago.
And for anyone who knows me, they would know 1. I've barely ever unpeeled a single sticker photo
2. I love stickers/unpeeling stickers
(quite paradoxical huh?)
So it was quite self gratifying to lay them out in place and then have them all stuck down neatly ;D

Love Lisa.